The reason behind the Song

Yesterday I posted a song that a friend posted on Facebook. It was perfect timing for me to hear this particular song, as I have been struggling again with fear.

You see, Ethan has been getting sick a lot lately, and even though this has not produced any protein. I have been finding my fears of him relapsing coming out in my dreams at night. They seem so real that when I wake, I can't wait to examine Ethan's face for any sign of puffiness.

Ethan has been complaining of stomach aches as well and looks rather pale and tired, he says he is not sleeping well at night either. He also has had a big reduction in his appetite. He never was a big eater to start with but his lack of desire to eat is concerning me. We have recently realized that some of his physical complaints are related to what is going on at School.  Hopefully we are getting to the bottom of these issues and things can return to normal for him.

The signs and things Ethan was telling me was sounding all too familiar. Without realizing it, I quickly began to move to that place of fear and anxiety. So when I heard this song, it was a perfect fit for me and as I cried and let the words wash over me. I began to feel comforted that even if the storms rage and we must battle thru this again, that God will take my hand.

Please keep Ethan in your prayers as he works through some of these issues as well. It affects him more than we realize, and when we come in contact with a sick person, because we have had to be so
cautious in the past. It can trigger a lot of anxiety and fears not only for him but for us as well.